Posted in Energy Healing, Grieving Naturally, Insights

Time to design

Mercury goes into retrograde next Tues, March 6. Since my sun sign is ruled by Mercury, sun sign too!. I have to play closer attention.  I can sit and feel sad, which I have.  I have a right. But need to take action. I have plans. I have not hit my design table for quite a while. Before my son passed anyway.

I spent a day over the weekend going through several articles and topics of information that I have saved over several decades. I have not worked with much of my healing toolbox. I feel a strong pull. That is why I decided to write a blog. I have studied with some interesting people and stood on the shoulders of giants. Time to pass my wisdom on. Some I wrote, some I didn’t. What I didn’t I give credit to.

I remember one thing that gets me moving is when I design. I work with natural beads. The beads heal me as I create. They calm me and I feel good. I sing and I chant. I put healing into the beads that I create as well. This will all good intention that whomever the piece finds will find much love and healing themselves. As I put the healing in with this intention. In return receive the love and return.  Can’t go wrong.

Stay tuned for some new pieces. Also re-engineered! I just looked at what I have and going to break down and recreate!  I plan on getting them on ETSY before the retrograde. I’m setting my goal right here! This will keep me busy!

Started my ETSY account today. What started being a gloomy day, turned out being quite productive! Yay!

 

Grieving is not for faint at heart!

For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.

What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.

It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…

My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.

How our emotions can weaken us

If there is ever doubt how the emotions work effect us when we are stressed. You might think a little before you let yourself react whether it is on the inside or outside.

  • Anger = Liver
  • Fear = Kidney
  • Grief = Lung
  • Stress = Heart and Brain
  • Worry = Stomach

Deep breathing as you concentrate on these areas can help with getting you back on track.

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Happy Valentine’s Day

Before one falls in love with another individual. It is important to fall in love with yourself unconditionally first. No one thing or person can fill that void.

This is nothing new news. It is about staying in tune with that love that is important. Because If we do. There is no reason anyone could disappoint us. Because Love does conquer all and especially negativity.

Time to look in the mirror and say…I love you!

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Natural Healing Stones

I really enjoy designing jewelry. What I found as I started that I really enjoyed working with natural stones and shells. I loved the feel of them as I worked with each piece. They gave me joy.

As a Reiki Master, I knew that the stones each have healing power. But I always wondered how could you prove something like that scientifically. One day I was looking through my crystal books and I found that each stone has a chemical compound. Of course, They are from the earth.

That wasn’t enough for me. So I discovered. If you wear a shell necklace that has calcium in it. What happens is your body soaks in the calcium from the shell it needs for your bones.

So many places you see that that there are stones that are for each chakra. The chakras are part of your energy system, Each Chakra points to a specific area of your body. Rose Quartz is good for your heart. Because the Rose Quartz comes from the earth it is energy and holds a vibration. Good one to vibrate to on Valentine’s day

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Stay Determined…

So many of us have made plans, goals, and by the next day. They are forgotten. Distractions are brutal. How many have set out to take a regimen of vitamins, or exercise or a life plan for eating? Might do it for a few days, then forget the next.

I decided I’m not going to be hard on myself. I am just going to keep picking myself up and doing what I have to do. I already have seen the results of forgetting about myself. I want to live and enjoy life.

I have started going back to my training in time management. Have beeping going off all times of the day to remind me to exercise, eat the right foods and take my vitamins. Do other work I am wanting to do. When you check things off for the day and complete things. It creates energy. When you don’t it depletes it. You can take the item you did not do, and post it the next day, then check it off for today for completion. It is important that we see a sense of accomplishment. I invite anyone to just join me and post any thoughts on how you stay determined.

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It really hit me today

I have been functioning pretty decent when it comes to grieving. I have put my effort into learning about blogging and thinking about interesting things.

The death certificate came in for my son and the reality again set in of the fact that he is no longer here physically. No more laughter, and teasing and funny faces. I know he is in spirit. I have been doing auto writing and have held conversations with both my sons. I know they are in good hands with spirit. However, the finality of it hit me.

Before I got myself into a spiral downward I came to the desktop and started to write. This is so healing for me and I hope it helps others who are grieving. Because you have someone significant in your life pass on, doesn’t mean you have to die too. They want us to live. I’m choosing to do this. As I write this sometimes, I’m working on convincing myself. So far it is working!

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If it is going to be, it is up to me!

So many people doubted that I would ever have done half of what I have proven that I could do. When they got done with their judgment of me, I would continue on my own downward spiral of self-pity. Even though On the outside, I would be strong. Then I realized how many would still be in bed after the events that I have endured. There haven’t been too many types of trauma that have not found its way to challenge me. Always end up on my two feet.

The first day of the year I was faced with the news of my son’s passing. I made a decision at that moment that I was going to choose to live. I spent 6 years stuffing my grief and sorrows with food. I don’t drink or drug. I started taking care of myself but like so many other times I have put a roadblock up. Many times it is not me. It is people or circumstances.

Death of a child is not insignificant by any means. But the choice to self-sabotage is. All these issues become overwhelming and trying to be strong. I stuff my feelings. Every time, there is an excuse and I’m the one who pays dearly. Before my son got sick this year at end of November. I made a decision that I had to forgive myself for all that happened around my first son’s death. Somethings were just out of my control. His Angel date is on the 5th of December. I didn’t want to be sad anymore and wanted to celebrate his life. I wanted to enjoy the holidays this year.

No sooner did I make this statement when I heard my second son took ill. I forgot all the promises I made to myself and my sugar numbers went off the charts. My younger son did not want me to tell anyone about his illness. I felt I was all alone on this one. He didn’t answer phones. It wasn’t an easy time. It was stressful. This lasted a month of not taking care of me in spite of what was going on. I worked so hard on my food plan before this.

The day I had to fly up to see my son, I had plenty of time to talk to me. I decided that I was not going to spend a lot of years again grieving and sabotaging myself. I was going to live. When I got up to Connecticut, I walked more during that time and at the cemetery and walking up and down steps, it became the beginning of my exercise program. I actually felt better. I didn’t eat the hoards of food that was sent to the house.

This past month I had my moments that I was sad. I know that God/Spirit has my boys and they are in good hands, out of pain and full of love. They want me to be happy and healthy. They must have served their purpose. I was in my own way. I know I am not alone on this journey. This is why I’m writing this. I am living for me. When I have a difficult time doing it for me I will do it for the kids. Regardless, If I am going to heal it is up to me and nobody else.

I have actually felt a shift in how I feel and act. I am finding I am not as quick to go off my food plan. I’m exercising. Even if it is a little bit. My heart is light instead of heavy. I talk to the kids all the time. I know they are around and intuitively, I feel them around. I know it is my turn and I have a lot of work to do.

Besides all my books, I have 25 years of journals that I have written. I have started looking at all the messages that I have received when I have channeled. This is only the beginning for me. This is my first time having a blog. But this is helping me. I intend as time goes on I will be there for you too. Hugs from me!