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Rediscovering Yourself

As you come out of the fog from grief., your vision starts to become clearer?  Back in 2008 when my first son found out about his brain cancer, I was going for my masters in Strategic Leadership and Personal Development.  I was on my last semester, but couldn’t concentrate enough to finish.

That was 10 years and 2 children gone from my life.  There is a piece of me that would love to finish. But I do not have the concentration level to deal with exams. But what I am doing in my mind as I do this blog, is finishing my degree. But helping others who have gone through what I have unfortunately had to endure.

Everything is not coming to me overnight. But I’m taking that good old slogan ” One Day at a Time”, and rediscovering myself. All will work out!

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Pace Yourself

When you are coming out of a fog from being frozen in place, whether from grief, depression, stress…move gently! Many cases your mind begins to spin, great ideas and things that you want to accomplish start popping up.  Sometimes they cycle and recycle until you say,  ah screw that, I’ll just sit here and watch TV.

I have a whiteboard near where I sit and watch TV.  Every night I cross off what I did. I add what I did do and was not written, so I can cross it off for the purpose of accomplishment.   Then I start a new list for the next day.  Seeing this in front of me helps a lot. I actually put fill my vitamin box.  If I don’t do it, I will forget for weeks to take them.  I will put silly things. Whatever muscle I need to move. 

Today I designed a Picture that I was going to trace on the cloth. This is so I can embroider. I promised my sister this right before my son died. I have not picked it up.  I pulled all my supplies together and going to put it right by where I sit. I’m ready to start.  Might be ready for her birthday next week!  I have a backup plan. But my good intentions are to complete it. It is not a complex pattern.  

That simple whiteboard did the trick! Just a pad and paper would do. But this thing is big and right in my face!  I encourage you to start with one for yourself. Don’t let the simplest of things stop you! It is just fear. You can thank it for sharing and go and do it anyway. Happy Creativity!

6 Months Already

It is for 6 months since Allen has passed. I have gone through the gambit of emotions. But last few nights have been rough with the debates. My son would have been on the campaign trails by now and we would have been on the phone through the whole thing and explaining the whole thing, not that I couldn’t, but he had the pulse higher up before he chose who to work for. He was in demand. I missed him so much.   He was such an animated person, everyone loved him. But he wanted to be with his brother, Brett in heaven. I know they are in a good place and fulfilling their purpose in Gods hands. I’ve had signs, I’ve talked to them and even though I miss and love them both. I know I’ll be ok. I got 2 angels watching over me!

Coming back to this blog helps me so much.  Each day, I work on something new to keep me going.  It doesn’t matter whether it is 6 months or 6 years. I miss them both the same. 

Well, I must have missed a month in my frozen state because it is 7 months.