Posted in Energy Healing, Grieving Naturally, Insights

Time to design

Mercury goes into retrograde next Tues, March 6. Since my sun sign is ruled by Mercury, sun sign too!. I have to play closer attention.  I can sit and feel sad, which I have.  I have a right. But need to take action. I have plans. I have not hit my design table for quite a while. Before my son passed anyway.

I spent a day over the weekend going through several articles and topics of information that I have saved over several decades. I have not worked with much of my healing toolbox. I feel a strong pull. That is why I decided to write a blog. I have studied with some interesting people and stood on the shoulders of giants. Time to pass my wisdom on. Some I wrote, some I didn’t. What I didn’t I give credit to.

I remember one thing that gets me moving is when I design. I work with natural beads. The beads heal me as I create. They calm me and I feel good. I sing and I chant. I put healing into the beads that I create as well. This will all good intention that whomever the piece finds will find much love and healing themselves. As I put the healing in with this intention. In return receive the love and return.  Can’t go wrong.

Stay tuned for some new pieces. Also re-engineered! I just looked at what I have and going to break down and recreate!  I plan on getting them on ETSY before the retrograde. I’m setting my goal right here! This will keep me busy!

Started my ETSY account today. What started being a gloomy day, turned out being quite productive! Yay!

 

Grieving is not for faint at heart!

For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.

What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.

It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…

My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.

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It really hit me today

I have been functioning pretty decent when it comes to grieving. I have put my effort into learning about blogging and thinking about interesting things.

The death certificate came in for my son and the reality again set in of the fact that he is no longer here physically. No more laughter, and teasing and funny faces. I know he is in spirit. I have been doing auto writing and have held conversations with both my sons. I know they are in good hands with spirit. However, the finality of it hit me.

Before I got myself into a spiral downward I came to the desktop and started to write. This is so healing for me and I hope it helps others who are grieving. Because you have someone significant in your life pass on, doesn’t mean you have to die too. They want us to live. I’m choosing to do this. As I write this sometimes, I’m working on convincing myself. So far it is working!

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Consistency of Living

A pattern is a form of consistency. Intellectually I know that this is the way to getting things done successfully. However, Why is it that I don’t stay with an exercise program, stay on my food plan, a schedule, my vitamins…whatever.

I even picked the color orange, because I react to it like nails on a chalkboard. Facing my resistance to consistency, what is stopping me from so many things. I am managing to sit my butt down in this chair and type. So this is a stop. I can make excuses with the best of them. I just lost a child, I should just stay on my couch and vegetate, feel sorry for myself. I can justify this one forever. I heard myself start the scenario in my head and I got up off the couch and headed for the keyboard. I know I am not alone on this one. You find yourself doing this too? What are you going to do to change this for yourself? Anxious to hear from you on this. I made a promise to myself that I am going to participate and be alive this year. I have too much to do.

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Just Breathe!

I took a few deep breaths. Put on some nice, calming music and picked up this tablet. Within a few minutes, I have a calming heart, a smile on my face and ready to go forward. This works! When the sorrow shows up and it will. Keep rebooting yourself. Because I know both you and myself are important. Right now, I have to take care of me. I have work yet to do! I will have a better day! How about you?

This is just a tough day. Since I lost one child already, I thought I’d be ok by now after losing the second. I’m determined not to cave in. I recognize ill have some rough days. But this is a little worst. Maybe because now both my children are in heaven. Empty feeling. Trying to avoid meds.

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The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me!

This month, January 1, 2019, I have lost my second son to illness. My older one, I lost 6 years ago to brain cancer. I know the grief has gotten the best of me over the past few years. I say I functioned pretty well. But that is not living. This time I have made a decision to live. This journey I am choosing to share with you. After healing many others over the years, I have forgot one important person. ME!!!