I have had come up with some great ideas today. Within minutes, I spiraled downwards into a sea of self-doubt. I found this photo and decided to turn my thoughts around and think positive. It is so easy to spiral downwards, however, I want to choose to believe in myself instead.
I use this process frequently. I have used 2 clear crystals as well
As I move forward with this blog. I want you to know that I have collected several neat little sayings, articles and such that I will share with you. Have no clue where I got them from. But thank you to whoever took the time to post them at the appropriate time. I pass them onto you and take no claims. I added a category called Charts so that you can refer back to them as you walk your own journey. I needed this one today to remind me that I do indeed have to heal myself first. What have you done to help yourself today?
You are no different than I. I may believe in one thing, you another. But there is only one source, creator. I choose to look at what unites us, not separates.
I have learned different types of thoughts and philosophies along the way in my journey. What I found is that the languaging is what separates us. So many instances we are saying the same things. But because I may not say it the same way that you do, doesn’t mean that I’m coming from an evil source, or am not from the light.
I am a healer. I am a Reiki Healer. I only work with the highest and best purpose. I have been trained in other forms of healing and techniques. All works in unison.
Right now I am working at getting myself back on the mends. Losing two children to illness is not an easy task to crawl out of. I am. I feel the calling to get back to healing. When I know I will let you know.
I came over to my desk here to enter some blog posts. I saw a little box on the desk. I forgot about it. I opened it. I was some little jewelry pieces. One was the necklace of an Amsa that Allen Brought me from Israel. I forgot where I put it. Also was a little tiny ring that said I love you Mom. I chose this blue, because that was the color of his eyes.
I have low blood sugar. I choose to look at it this way. I am trying my darnest not to call it Diabetes. I’m choosing to take care of my health. This blog is my journey to living!
I went to a training yesterday, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I recognize that I have to take care of myself, however, to be told I have to go to all these lists of doctors that will add to the disease. Yes, I will keep an eye on my eyes and not walk barefoot. That will be rough. I’m always walking barefoot! I’ll Watch for infections. This is something you should do anyway.
Right now I’m trying my best to keep my blood sugar down by healthy eating and living. When I looked into the book they gave me that listed all the drugs that I could possibly take. It cured me of putting a piece of cake in my mouth. The side effects were downright scary. Starting with weight gain. Stomach problems. No wonder you lose weight on that one. It gives you stomach problems.
My biggest hurdle is not eating emotionally. Having been only 1 month since my son passed. Gives me a justified reason for some good chocolate. However, learning how to live is now more about having emotions and not punishing my self in the process. I’m open to any insight!!!!
I found this little tidbit on the web or facebook. But I thought it was kind of handy to have around. This past year I was diagnosed with diabetes and I am trying my best to treat it with healthy eating. I hate measuring and this whole thing is a trial and error. But this is part of being the alive plan. Any great ideas are welcome!
I know most of what I have to do. Again, it is doing it! Water, exercise, etc. But give me some stress and bring on the chocolate. I have changed that a bit. Not quite doing celery instead yet. But little by little.
A few years ago, I was asked what was I going to do with all my books and articles, papers, computer files that I have saved all these years. What was I going to do with them if I wasn’t using them? Yes, I was mad at first but they were not wrong. They were only collecting dust on the shelves and hogging several gigs on my computer. I also said to myself that I have studied all these books. I have saved all these interesting articles. But I also enjoy sharing my knowledge with others. I love when someone has a question and I know just know what book or article to find it in. Brings me joy.
A pattern is a form of consistency. Intellectually I know that this is the way to getting things done successfully. However, Why is it that I don’t stay with an exercise program, stay on my food plan, a schedule, my vitamins…whatever.
I even picked the color orange, because I react to it like nails on a chalkboard. Facing my resistance to consistency, what is stopping me from so many things. I am managing to sit my butt down in this chair and type. So this is a stop. I can make excuses with the best of them. I just lost a child, I should just stay on my couch and vegetate, feel sorry for myself. I can justify this one forever. I heard myself start the scenario in my head and I got up off the couch and headed for the keyboard. I know I am not alone on this one. You find yourself doing this too? What are you going to do to change this for yourself? Anxious to hear from you on this. I made a promise to myself that I am going to participate and be alive this year. I have too much to do.
I took a few deep breaths. Put on some nice, calming music and picked up this tablet. Within a few minutes, I have a calming heart, a smile on my face and ready to go forward. This works! When the sorrow shows up and it will. Keep rebooting yourself. Because I know both you and myself are important. Right now, I have to take care of me. I have work yet to do! I will have a better day! How about you?
This is just a tough day. Since I lost one child already, I thought I’d be ok by now after losing the second. I’m determined not to cave in. I recognize ill have some rough days. But this is a little worst. Maybe because now both my children are in heaven. Empty feeling. Trying to avoid meds.
Lady Hy: WisdomKeeper 
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