Posted in Grieving Naturally, Self Determination

Choose your words wisely…

Keeping in the context of we can create our wellness as well as our illness.  I have been trying to catch myself when I am cursing things out. Complaining about stupid things, realizing how important was it really.

I am choosing to stay positive the best that I can.  Maybe there won’t be a hurricane that hits us if I don’t worry about! Interesting thought!  Or group consciousness…many people not worry. Many people down in Florida don’t even move until they really really know it is about to hit. The newscasters start the fear mongering in January. Being human, and if you have ever been through one, makes you hypersensitive.

Worrying is like praying for something you don’t want, so now I can see how I was faced with so many sh*t storms. I created them.  Owning up to your actions is tough. But oh, so necessary. More and more that you can correct yourself when you hear those words coming out of your mouth. Saves you a lot of grief.

When I was taking the journey to my son’s funeral in January. I had not flown since 2009. I was worried about everything. All the what ifs… were piling up. I had to make it stop so I caught myself and kept chanting…”Everything will be alright”. Guess what it was! The plans all fell into place. Amazing how we have the power to change our fate.

Grieving is not for faint at heart!

For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.

What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.

It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…

My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.

Posted in Self Determination

Stay Determined…

So many of us have made plans, goals, and by the next day. They are forgotten. Distractions are brutal. How many have set out to take a regimen of vitamins, or exercise or a life plan for eating? Might do it for a few days, then forget the next.

I decided I’m not going to be hard on myself. I am just going to keep picking myself up and doing what I have to do. I already have seen the results of forgetting about myself. I want to live and enjoy life.

I have started going back to my training in time management. Have beeping going off all times of the day to remind me to exercise, eat the right foods and take my vitamins. Do other work I am wanting to do. When you check things off for the day and complete things. It creates energy. When you don’t it depletes it. You can take the item you did not do, and post it the next day, then check it off for today for completion. It is important that we see a sense of accomplishment. I invite anyone to just join me and post any thoughts on how you stay determined.