My Journey for Living Blog

Posted in Energy Healing, Grieving Naturally, Insights, Self Determination, The lady's Journey

Go For it!

I can’t begin to tell you how many times I have questioned myself. What is my calling?

I have been searching and researching since I was a little girl. There was something in me that felt that I did not fit into the box of the big 3 major religions. I am a rebel from right out of the gate. Being a rebel isn’t always a bad thing. Most of the trouble I’d get myself in, is with my mouth. Always inquisitive! Putting the pieces of the puzzle together and possibly take that path. I took risks and I got burned and more often I succeeded. I never gave up searching. The calling was always strong.

My research took me to the eastern philosophies. I learned about energy and became a Reiki Master\Teacher. I learned many other types of healing. I knew myself better, that i could not remember all those terms in main stream medicine. Nor Eastern for that fact! I felt that I was being called to heal. Researching western mysticism of Kabbalah led me to another path. There is a similarity between the healing that and the chakra system. The energy centers are just called something different. Both systems are complex as you get more advanced, yet fascinating!

When you start to compare various philosophies, you will find that there is a common thread and that is called Love. At this point no matter what direction that was chosen, I couldn’t go wrong as long as it came from a place of love. When I would meditate I would get some insightful messages. I’d get you are going to do this or that, but not how to do it. This left me frustrated and led me to the question…what next.

I’ve been journaling for several years and wrote these messages down. So I started a list of what I liked working on. I had 25 years of journals to choose from. Went to several seminars. Had such a zest to learn more. It was never enough to fill some void that I had to fulfill a calling. I never could quite put my finger on exactly.

Then in 2012 I lost my son older son to Brain Cancer. It left me numb for several years. Didn’t do any healing and especially not on myself. I ate through my grief. Just I felt I was coming out of the fog, My younger and only son was taken from me. I have nothing left to lose. My heart is broken. So I thought. I started doing what always made me feel good. I wrote. I joined groups of other parents who lost children. Having lost one son already and time has passed. I felt that I can be of service to others. I also wanted to help others with coping with grief with out the help of meds. Working with a do it yourself method when going through the worst moments. So combining the my energy healing background and my experience I took to writing this blog. Writing gives me a purpose and and reason to share and be of service to others.

The blog started this way but also has evolved to helping anyone who felt that wanted to heal look at healing themselves. Not just people grieving for children either. I’m not a doctor. I do have to say check with your doctor before trying any form of healing. But I think you don’t need permission to take deep breaths. I have tried several of the different methods that I have shared. Many times I haven’t.

Would love to hear from you on your experience. Many times when we go through difficult times. It appears we can not get out of our own way. Look through some old posts and try something different. One way doesn’t work for all. Sometimes I go back myself and look, because I need a reminder. I really appreciate all of you that have started following me and would love to hear from you! Do you know what your calling is?

Posted in Energy Healing, Grieving Naturally, Insights, motivation, Overcoming Emotions, The lady's Journey

This is your movie!

This life… is your movie, You have choices to make for you and for no one else. Like the above meme states we have to accept the consequences for every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime. Taking responsibility is not always easy. But it is very healing. Because you get to see how much power you really do have within yourself. You can choose to have a roll on how it plays out for you.

Someone I know, gave me some bad news that they thought could happen if things don’t change and I don’t take action. So my thinking started to go on a whirlwind downhill. I’ve been upset and miserable because of this for several days. Then I realized that is my story not anyone elses. I awakened with the feeling that I can change this. So I kept repeating my favorite saying. Everything will be ok. I kept doing this and realized that the energy shifted. I was not miserable. We were joking and things started to look uplifting around me. I felt good things are coming my way.

When we get flustered, we tend to seek outside of ourselves to see what someone else may have to offer on the topic. But ultimately it is up to us. We take what we need and leave the rest. Ultimately the choice is ours and how we react or act. Sometimes we are dealt some really rough issues. Sometimes too many at once. However, this is the time to take to go within and meditate. Take a deep breath, and see what advice spirit has in store for you. You might be surprised. If you are headed down a path that starts to appear just not right…turn around and run.

Years ago I was told by an elder that I was a very strong person. During these times when I feel like I’m drowning, I tend to reach up to a sinking ship, wondering why they can’t save me. In many instances, I’ve been the one pulling them up by the boot straps anyway! This is the time that I need to pull up my big girl pants and walk to shore. Because I am actually in shallow water all that time. I can count on me like I always have and get on with life.

Note: Rely on yourself and your own creator every time you are confronted with a path that was not meant for you.

Posted in Grieving Naturally, motivation

Ability to adapt to change

Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change“…Stephen Hawking

Who am I to question the great Stephen Hawking. I started within my mind to do just that. Then I started to look at all the changes that I have been required to adapt to. Then thought to myself, damn I’m good!

When I’m on my journey I tend to seek inquires to people to see if I’m on the right track. Doesn’t mean my ability is less. It means I’m on an information fact finding journey. Once I gather all the information I will make my decision. When I tend to find many challenges are flying at me at once, I do reach out to see what others might do if they were in a situation. Doesn’t mean I buy into all the input, It means that I want to look at all sides of the problem before moving forward. I do have the ability to adapt to change. If anyone can, it is someone who has lost. Many kinds of loss, it is not just people. During this year I also had a partner lose his job, which resulted in loss of income. If that is not adapting I don’t know what is.

There is no time for a pity party, I picked up and move on. He got a job and I just treated myself to a brand new 2020 Car! It is my birthday present to me. I have the ability to adapt to positive outcomes. So do you!

Posted in Grieving Naturally, Overcoming Emotions

It’s MY TURN

Back on the 6th of September, I had celebrated my life on this earth for 67 years. I never hid the number from anyone. As time has passed, I learned many lessons. I noticed that some really are not repeating anymore. I celebrated those. I have hit the existing ones head on.

As I grow older I matured. my mind didn’t feel old, but my body reminded me. My body took the brunt end of my emotions through those lessons. The lesson that took the hardest hit at me was the loss of my two children. Wondering why I’m here and the two boys left at such an early age. My friend told me that my eyes looked vacant yestersday. This bothered me. Because I saw it in the photo myself.

Why me? That wasn’t the question. The creator doesn’t want a pity party! I took that lesson to task and asked the creator on the Harvest Moon. A time when the vail between the worlds is thin. I trust the creator, but doesn’t mean I have to like the answer. I try to understand it. The answer was that I fulfilled my purpose as a parent into ascending their spirtual growth to their perspective levels in the upper dimensions. They did their part in my lessons into ascending to my level of spirituality on earth. As I mature I may not have done so if they were not in my life to test me. This was an agreement on the other side between us. They were my teachers there and on earth.

Trying to understand this thought I remembered reading a meme a few months ago about how when you lose a child, that you are at a very high spiritual level at this point in time and closest to the creator. The grief is so gut wrenching that you have nothing left to lose. This also means that the greatest and strongest power is within us to create. To have endless flows of energy. But i couldn’t see it at the time. As the fog and shell shock of grief starts to wear off, you start to create , write, draw, design, stitch fheal and many other wonderful things. I’m finding a sense of peace that knowing my children are in good hands and they are serving their purpose. I know they are around me all the time.

Now it is my turn to pay attention to the path and the direction I am going. I am free to do this now. Just have to give myself the permission to do so. I saw after I got that message last night that I have some marching orders. I was set free, thekids are ok. Doesn’t mean I’ll ever not miss them, I certainly love them. It means that it is out of my hands. It is my turn to be healed and then to heal. To heal through my arts and through my gift of healing. My soul has been hungry for a long time. Grief has taken a good part of the past 7 years of my life between my two beautiful sons. Time to feed her and not my body.

Posted in Energy Healing, Grieving Naturally, Self Determination, The lady's Journey

Simply speaking

Many people have not comprehended the impact of the word. We have a choice. We create our own reality? We can either bless ourselves, or curse ourselves. This can be very empowering to us. Most of us are inherently good people. We want good experiences for ourselves. Positive outcomes can simply show up for ourselves by being conscious about what comes out of our mouths.

The spoken word is energy. Many of set our ourselves up for failure, then wonder what hit us. By using the words I can’t, shouldn’t, won’t, these are just a few.

We all have an opportunity to use the creative word energy to impact our lives. We CAN manifest what ever we want. Catch ourselves as we spew negativity from our mouths. We all do this and it is so unnecessary. Changing it instantaneously, can change our mood and behavior just as fast.

I challenge you to try just for a week. I always encourage to journal. Feel free to comment. Would love to hear from you!

Posted in Energy Healing

Necessary Prayers

I have most of our things prepared for the storm. This morning I woke to find that bit isn’t hitting the west coast of Florida. All models point going north. However, it is still a crapshoot.

I can’t take a moment of relief, a deep breath,  because my grandchildren and many of my friends are living on another side of the state. Even if I didn’t know anyone that lives there. I know what it is like and know that…Now is the time to take to pray for anyone in its path. Please join me ❤

 

 

Posted in motivation, Overcoming Emotions

Unnecessary Anxiety

There is a hurricane coming! Meteorologist is in high gear on TV, and they are soooo excited! People all around are at the stores buying up all the water and supplies. Well, I can really freak out or not.  First of all, they have no clue what direction it is going. I am watching all the people panic. Many Floridians already know this. Some still panic.

I check to see if I had batteries and all the things you need for the go-bag. I got food. I filled the water bottles. Which I have not developed the list yet. It is Thursday, It is not coming until Monday and that is if it hits here. Well ran out of batteries, ordered from Amazon, here by tomorrow. The task is done.

Worry makes us old! There are so many times we waste so much time with unnecessary anxiety. Don’t get me wrong, I lived through 2 horrifying experiences in 2004 with 10 each without electric. Not to mention the level 5 coming at us 5 years ago that didn’t hit our area that bad. I don’t want to go through this again. Yes, I am nervous. But we have time. I have the stuff in the house.

It is not hitting to Sunday, Monday or maybe Tuesday. So how many days are we going to put our body into turmoil? We do this to ourselves, not just through hurricanes. Anxiety is so harmful to us. We don’t need a pill. We can do this!  It is important at this time to stop and pause, pace yourself, take a few deep breaths. Make your list. You just might be surprised that you already have most of the items and your go-to bag is full. If the hurricane doesn’t even come your way. You put yourself through an unnecessary unliving hell for nothing. Now Breathe!

Posted in Insights, Self Determination, The lady's Journey

Your Life’s Journey

I’ve been journaling for several years. In a matter of fact, I have over 25 years of journals just waiting to be sorted through. 

Before I begin a notebook, I put what am I grateful for right on the front page.  Over the years,  things have changed. I see now that I’m older,  things seemed so silly to me now. So unimportant. It is nice to go back and see this for yourself. it is very healing. Be creative! Use different color pens, sketch in there, use different types of paper. I use regular notebook paper with tear out perforation so I can tear it out and put it in a looseleaf notebook after. 

You get to see how you managed to land on your feet, after a traumatic time. Oh, I had a lot of those! When you look back. You get to see how you had a part in it. How you can do things differently. Once your children grow older, you get to see that you put your own parents through hell,  or maybe, you were not so bad after all! Each incident and journey is different. I never strived for perfection. Nothing is. But I always put my best foot forward. You are only fooling yourself if you think that you can be perfect. 

Privacy can be an issue.  If you are writing your journal in a document. Make it password protected.  

Many times I find I open up a blank page. That is when I go to my page where I write where I am grateful.  Other times I take a saying and let my feelings revolve around the topic. Sometimes. I really do amaze myself. I encourage you to pick up a pen and paper, or go to your computer and start writing out your journey. If you have not already started. I would love to hear from anyone on ideas about journaling. 

Finding Balance out of Chaos

I decided to change my desk around, originally because the A/C vent was freezing me out!  My dear partner helped me move things around. I solved that situation. But what I also did was make room for my art supply caddy!  There is also plenty of room to move my keyboard out of the way and take a sketch pad out.

I then turn my chair around and I’m at my design table. I’m a happy camper today! I find that as i reorganize my office, I’m finding the energy open up to create easier.

The past year, I have been having visions of drawing something. I don’t have the tools or the know-how to do what I saw.  However, I have ordered all the types of pens and brushes I need.    I’m going to go to learn something this week.  The internet has unlimited resources to choose from. I’m ready to play!

Posted in Creativity, Crystals

You had the power all along, my Dear…Glynda, the Good Witch.

I don’t know about you…but I need this constant reminder. Because there are times I let myself down.  I know I can create miracles like we all can!  I’ll go into a pity party and even I don’t like me.  So Out of nowhere, today I said I was going to come into the office and create. So I did! Sometimes I amaze myself. I’m being funny here.

The picture I added to this post is what I designed today. I am an earth sign and needed grounding.  The color brown is all about being all-natural and organic.  About security, stability, and support.  I’m needing that today.  There are not any precious stones on this piece. However, there is copper.  It is a healing metal. It is a conductor of energy. Copper is linked to the divine and the Queen of Heaven.

When I want to empower all my existing power within. I pull a piece of jewelry or a crystal to speak to me. I just don’t design. I Chant and heal as I work on each piece.  This is the power within  What do you do in your life that enhances the power within?