Tag: Grief

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Not sure what to say!

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I had an appointment today and was asked how many children do I have.  At first, I said, not sure how to answer this. She gave me a strange look. I choked up, a little bit of tears. Then sat up straight and said …, Yes, I have two in heaven!

To hear those words come out of my mouth made it really real! At that moment, there was a shift in energy. I had a choice, do I fall apart, or do I pull up my big girl panties and stand strong. All my life I fought to stay strong in the face of adversary. Today, was one more day I chose strong once again.

 

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Lakota/Sioux Tradition on grief and loss

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“In the Lakota/Sioux tradition, a person who is grieving is considered most waken, most holy. There’s a sense that when someone is struck by the sudden lightning of loss, he or she stands on the threshold of the spirit world. The prayers of those who grieve are considered especially strong, and it is proper to ask them for their help. You might recall what it’s like to be with someone who has grieved deeply. The person has no layer of protection, nothing left to defend. The mystery is looking out through that person’s eyes. For the time being, he or she has accepted the reality of loss and has stopped clinging to the past or grasping at the future. In the groundless openness of sorrow, there is a wholeness of presence and a deep natural wisdom.”

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How much loss can you take?

Posted on by Lady Hy: Wisdomkeeper

I’m only 2 months in from my loss from my younger son Allen. I do ok. I have my moments but I’m functioning. I am doing well with my sugar numbers, even though I had a perfectly good reason to go haywire. 

But then came another blow. My dear friend of over 20 years, took ill in hospital and I lost her yesterday. She does not live near me. I was blessed to be able to say goodbye to her. Her daughter put the phone up to her ear.  Even though we did not live near. We were on the phone daily chatting. To me, that was a visit. We helped each other through the toughest of time. Yes, she was there for me when both my sons passed.  We were there for each other at times for celebration too. 

My heart is so heavy right now.  I feel that grief is trauma.  When you have to deal with so much of it…it takes a toll on you.  This is the second friend within a year that has passed from kidney failure.  What this is showing me, is that I need to stay diligent with my food plan and avoid the sugars. Take care of myself. This goes back to why I even started this blog. I want to live. 

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Time to design

Posted on by Lady Hy: Wisdomkeeper

Mercury goes into retrograde next Tues, March 6. Since my sun sign is ruled by Mercury, sun sign too!. I have to play closer attention.  I can sit and feel sad, which I have.  I have a right. But need to take action. I have plans. I have not hit my design table for quite a while. Before my son passed anyway.

I spent a day over the weekend going through several articles and topics of information that I have saved over several decades. I have not worked with much of my healing toolbox. I feel a strong pull. That is why I decided to write a blog. I have studied with some interesting people and stood on the shoulders of giants. Time to pass my wisdom on. Some I wrote, some I didn’t. What I didn’t I give credit to.

I remember one thing that gets me moving is when I design. I work with natural beads. The beads heal me as I create. They calm me and I feel good. I sing and I chant. I put healing into the beads that I create as well. This will all good intention that whomever the piece finds will find much love and healing themselves. As I put the healing in with this intention. In return receive the love and return.  Can’t go wrong.

Stay tuned for some new pieces. Also re-engineered! I just looked at what I have and going to break down and recreate!  I plan on getting them on ETSY before the retrograde. I’m setting my goal right here! This will keep me busy!

Started my ETSY account today. What started being a gloomy day, turned out being quite productive! Yay!

 

Grieving is not for faint at heart!

For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.

What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.

It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…

My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.

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How our emotions can weaken us

If there is ever doubt how the emotions work effect us when we are stressed. You might think a little before you let yourself react whether it is on the inside or outside.

  • Anger = Liver
  • Fear = Kidney
  • Grief = Lung
  • Stress = Heart and Brain
  • Worry = Stomach

Deep breathing as you concentrate on these areas can help with getting you back on track.

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If it is going to be, it is up to me!

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So many people doubted that I would ever have done half of what I have proven that I could do. When they got done with their judgment of me, I would continue on my own downward spiral of self-pity. Even though On the outside, I would be strong. Then I realized how many would still be in bed after the events that I have endured. There haven’t been too many types of trauma that have not found its way to challenge me. Always end up on my two feet.

The first day of the year I was faced with the news of my son’s passing. I made a decision at that moment that I was going to choose to live. I spent 6 years stuffing my grief and sorrows with food. I don’t drink or drug. I started taking care of myself but like so many other times I have put a roadblock up. Many times it is not me. It is people or circumstances.

Death of a child is not insignificant by any means. But the choice to self-sabotage is. All these issues become overwhelming and trying to be strong. I stuff my feelings. Every time, there is an excuse and I’m the one who pays dearly. Before my son got sick this year at end of November. I made a decision that I had to forgive myself for all that happened around my first son’s death. Somethings were just out of my control. His Angel date is on the 5th of December. I didn’t want to be sad anymore and wanted to celebrate his life. I wanted to enjoy the holidays this year.

No sooner did I make this statement when I heard my second son took ill. I forgot all the promises I made to myself and my sugar numbers went off the charts. My younger son did not want me to tell anyone about his illness. I felt I was all alone on this one. He didn’t answer phones. It wasn’t an easy time. It was stressful. This lasted a month of not taking care of me in spite of what was going on. I worked so hard on my food plan before this.

The day I had to fly up to see my son, I had plenty of time to talk to me. I decided that I was not going to spend a lot of years again grieving and sabotaging myself. I was going to live. When I got up to Connecticut, I walked more during that time and at the cemetery and walking up and down steps, it became the beginning of my exercise program. I actually felt better. I didn’t eat the hoards of food that was sent to the house.

This past month I had my moments that I was sad. I know that God/Spirit has my boys and they are in good hands, out of pain and full of love. They want me to be happy and healthy. They must have served their purpose. I was in my own way. I know I am not alone on this journey. This is why I’m writing this. I am living for me. When I have a difficult time doing it for me I will do it for the kids. Regardless, If I am going to heal it is up to me and nobody else.

I have actually felt a shift in how I feel and act. I am finding I am not as quick to go off my food plan. I’m exercising. Even if it is a little bit. My heart is light instead of heavy. I talk to the kids all the time. I know they are around and intuitively, I feel them around. I know it is my turn and I have a lot of work to do.

Besides all my books, I have 25 years of journals that I have written. I have started looking at all the messages that I have received when I have channeled. This is only the beginning for me. This is my first time having a blog. But this is helping me. I intend as time goes on I will be there for you too. Hugs from me!

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Consistency of Living

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A pattern is a form of consistency. Intellectually I know that this is the way to getting things done successfully. However, Why is it that I don’t stay with an exercise program, stay on my food plan, a schedule, my vitamins…whatever.

I even picked the color orange, because I react to it like nails on a chalkboard. Facing my resistance to consistency, what is stopping me from so many things. I am managing to sit my butt down in this chair and type. So this is a stop. I can make excuses with the best of them. I just lost a child, I should just stay on my couch and vegetate, feel sorry for myself. I can justify this one forever. I heard myself start the scenario in my head and I got up off the couch and headed for the keyboard. I know I am not alone on this one. You find yourself doing this too? What are you going to do to change this for yourself? Anxious to hear from you on this. I made a promise to myself that I am going to participate and be alive this year. I have too much to do.

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Just Breathe!

Posted on by Lady Hy: Wisdomkeeper

I took a few deep breaths. Put on some nice, calming music and picked up this tablet. Within a few minutes, I have a calming heart, a smile on my face and ready to go forward. This works! When the sorrow shows up and it will. Keep rebooting yourself. Because I know both you and myself are important. Right now, I have to take care of me. I have work yet to do! I will have a better day! How about you?

This is just a tough day. Since I lost one child already, I thought I’d be ok by now after losing the second. I’m determined not to cave in. I recognize ill have some rough days. But this is a little worst. Maybe because now both my children are in heaven. Empty feeling. Trying to avoid meds.