Today was rather dull, and I found myself dwelling in my gloom. Despite not wanting to stay in that state, I had a list of activities to do but still felt a resistance.
I motivated myself to rise and began channeling energy from my feet up to the crown chakra at the top of my head. As I continued to nurture and elevate it throughout my body, I felt significantly better afterward.
I grabbed my journal and started writing my way out of this mood. Try it, it works!
It’s been some time since my last update here. I’ve recently entered singlehood after a 17-year relationship. I’ll omit the painful details, but I’m open to sharing the insights I’ve gained since he departed our home.
Though this wasn’t my first breakup, it felt completely different. The echoes of past traumas resurfaced. In the beginning, it took a while for me to recover from the initial shock and work through the various stages of grief.
At first, he was the chef, and I relied on him for cooking and grocery shopping. Being catered to was enjoyable, but I didn’t anticipate the detrimental effect on my self-reliance. It left me feeling dependent, a condition I had always tried to evade. It’s something you don’t realize at the moment.
As time passed, I learned to function independently and I’m proud to say that I’m still standing strong.
A year and a half has passed, and I’m still in this house. I’ve been unable to sell it despite doing everything possible to prepare it. I feel it’s time to begin my new life, yet it seems the universe has different plans for me. I persist in journaling, and with every moment that passes, new insights reveal themselves to me. I remain patient, immersing myself in each revelation.
I’ve always understood that loss isn’t confined to death. Yet, the magnitude of loss I’m experiencing feels overwhelming. Nevertheless, I’ve come to understand that healing from my partner’s departure is perhaps necessary before I can start to move forward. As I downsize and transition to a new area, the life I once knew seems to be fading away continuously. I am ready and willing to embrace the act of letting go.
I get sidetracked just like everyone else. That is right, even forget to write on here. Life happens and get distracted. Time flies. Which of these 10 ideas should I write about and then can’t make a decision. Really! I’m regrouping today! One day at a time!
I went to the doctor the other day for my general check up. This doctor did not know me from anything. I did not choose her, my other doctor left. Obviously she hasn’t checked my labs. She looked at me and said I was going to die soon and I needed to get on statins for my cholesterol (numbers normal)and metformin for my diabetes (numbers pre-diabetic). This past year I reversed my diabetes. I stood up for myself and I told her that I have a team of people that help me. Either she joins me or I’ll find another doctor. I was glad that I stood up for myself. However, I was so floored, I came home an ate junk food. I do not do well with abusive behavior.
I do know I have to get back on my plan. I got off it for a bit with dealing with my usual stressful stuff. But I certainly did not deserve that. Knowing that what they call healing is about the bottom line, and having first hand experience is another. What happened with…I see you went up 2 points on your A1C, but your pre-diabetic still, that is good. How can I help you?
This is why I have mostly worked with alternative medicine for several years. I am not perfect and know that. As I look back. I see that I have taken 1 or 2 steps back, not 10. I’m progressing in the direction of my life goal. That is what counts. My time between me being off target and on, is less and less. When you can look at things like that, you are ahead of the game. That is where the control is. Planning, recording time in your schedule. You see proof.
I use the digital calendar, however, I also use a paper planner. I just need to write it down. That writing is my connection for it to sinking into my brain. For me that works. Everyone has a different way to keep themselves organized. Go to your inner voice. She knows the answer! Find yours. Just do it! As I share with you, I remind myself. Have a great day!
Tolerance comes in many shapes and forms. One side is judging the other. It takes a lot of courage to ignore or fight back the behavior attack towards you. What is missing in many cases, is the understanding on one side or another. Be mindful and compassionate. Take time to listen.
It is important that one recognizes that all information does not necessarily come from the most popular resources. It does concern me when someone just assumes what they hear is all their is without even the considering another position. Taking face value, Just because the scientist isn’t popular in the main stream, does it mean that they are wrong or haven’t done the research. Maybe they have gone through so many trials and tribulations, in order for you to receive the information because others don’t want you to find out. This would concern me. It is important to open our eyes and not just go along. No one says you have to accept everything, but don’t dismiss it totally because it is not the popular. This is an issue with so many topics on so many levels.
I was different, my whole life. I have come to embrace this uniqueness as a positive attribute about myself. I questioned everything especially when I always felt when something just didn’t seem right. My feeling is my higher self, and that I trust. I trust my gut. My feminine intuition or what ever you want to call it. I guess my soul is just not good enough for some. If you are believing something and it is truly what you believe. They are dismissing the very core of your being and that just hurts. Don’t you understand that these people are put into your life to learn. Embrace the challenge. Your soul is inviting you to do this.
At first, I may be taken back by a topic. But then I come back and I’m willing to listen. The act of listening is what actually brings all of us into balance. Our heart smiles !!
I was told from my Astrology friends, that this full moon would be in Virgo and to use it to my advantage. Yes I’m a Virgo. I have spent most of this week. I have been in an decluttering. It was so cathartic to rip up all the paper. At the end of this week I am feeling so much more energized. It is amazing how much a difference it makes. Why fight it, if it brings some beneficial results. It is called life happens. It is moving past that what is stopping me, accepting it.
I have Attention Deficit. Approaching a project can be unapproachable. I’ll be frozen for days and months avoiding it totally choosing some fun stuff. Sometimes, I need someone to just sit with me. Not even do much. Just start me addressing the pile. I did have some one help me and what a blessing it was. Then they can walk away.
Last night after I cleared my closet and stuff all around my room. I also cleared my rocker so I can enjoy my book later that night. It was such a sense of peace in there without all the clutter. I so enjoyed my journaling. That is a sacred place for me. I haven’t been able to enjoy it. The clutter stifled my creativity. Once it cleared. I was writing pages! I invite you to join me.
We all have the capacity to shine and be the light. Sometimes along the walk of life there was someone that said to us, somehow…No not you! Whether it was a clergy, your parents, peer. Doesn’t matter. It sunk in and we found it difficult to fight that mind set. As you get older (you couldn’t tell me this at 20), you find that what you were told, wasn’t necessarily all true. You start to gather information, you pull it together and then realize. Wait a minute. That is not true.
We are humans, but we also are spiritual beings as well. I find the quicker we bounce back, the quicker we start to shine the light. Some circumstances are more difficult than others. They are lessons we must go through. When we arrive on the other side, we tend to have an ah hah moment. If not, we repeat. You got a life time to practice. However, quicker you learn, the easier you are able to stand on your feet, and move on.
Move on to what, you wonder. You move on in life. Even when you get older, you get a reprieve from daily strive. Then bam, a situation comes along for you to pay attention to. Or not. Maybe this one is not your circus. Maybe you have to sit back and let them follow through on their own. You are at this moment preparing yourself for what lies ahead. Maybe it is just rest. Maybe another lesson. No matter what comes across your pathway…always strive to shine through. Have a wonderful day!
Where did January go? It seems like we just celebrated the new year. I hear many people saying I can’t wait for this or that to happen, instead of staying in the present. Do you realize that when we do that. We are wishing our life away. Everything will come in due time. When you are ready it will show up!
What you can do is start visualizing your dream. Make a vision board. What you would like to see in your life. Then visualize it like it is already here. That is different then wishing. When you are wishing you are wishing your life away. When you visualize, You are seeing what you what right here right now! In the moment! You then create it coming true!
Finding balance is critical through out all that we have been through this year. It is important to not accept all that you hear, but do some of your own research. Not only from areas that you have been looking at most of your life. Look at alternatives. It can open up your eyes. You don’t have to change. But sure will give you something to ponder.
This year I chose to pull back and stay centered. Most of my political involvment is issue based, not party. I’m all for good health. I worked at achieving it this year. I feel that if someone is taking care of themselves and having the proper vitamins there is not a need to have the vaccine. If they are not sure of the outcomes. Why should I put myself through it. I am taking care of myself and health. It is not affecting you.
Staying balanced is about taking care of yourself. Not attacking people who don’t believe in what you believe. Maybe trusting they just might know something. Maybe ask them to share what they know. Listen. You might think it is conspiracy, but many of theories have become truth. What do we really know.
What we know is we are here on earth and we have a body. We have to take care of this body in the best we know how. Starting with choosing the right food for you. If you eat the right foods. You may not need vitamins. Get a blood test to see where your deficiencies are. Get some exercise. Yes I need some too! Meditate! Put on some beautiful music and RELAX……ahhh
Thank you Lisa! I saw this meme on my friend’s post and I know she’s having a blast uncluttering her home in order to sell. I reorganized my kitchen and livingroom this week and it has that just moved in (unpack) look!
I had someone help me out a bit, as I was trying to put this stuff in order. She asked how I have all that I do. Well I have had myself a job and a home for well over 40 years for starters. I didn’t lose my home and took care of things. So I’m not going to apologize for all that I have!
Now, after saying that. Do I need all this! There is just two of us. My books are my friends. Many are reference. So are all the papers! Yikes Now that I can actually see my books with the reorganizing, I have new stuff to start writing about.
The above meme is right we spent all those years of money, energy and time to clean up a mess. It is time to weed out what I don’t need. It is a toss up, after working hard to obtain what I did and then to wonder why?!? It is all inside us. There is no need to fill our selves with stuff anymore.
When I feel a sense of order on the inside as I unclutter. Then the world around me starts to unclutter, too!
This post came across my FB page today as a memory from last year! Wanted to share it with you. Because I find it very uplifting.
Lady Hy: WisdomKeeper 
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